Chip Chick
Not long after she cut ties with her mother, she learned that her mother had been diagnosed with cancer.
She felt conflicted about this news.
“I guess that’s normal when you go your whole life getting no love from a parent. I was sad for her, but I would be lying if I said I was heartbroken or as hurt as I would be if it was another member of my family,” she shared.
Despite the complicated relationship she had with her mother, she was supportive because she always wanted to be there for others when they were going through tough times.
She called family members to try to get updates on how her mother’s treatment was going, but no one she reached out to gave her too many details.
Later, her mother informed her that her cancer was late-stage, meaning that there was a possibility that the cancer could spread to the brain. The probability of her mother was not only high but nearly guaranteed.
Suddenly, she realized the reality of her mother possibly dying, and she experienced strange feelings in reaction to this.
It didn’t make her feel good, and over the next several days, she thought about how upset she was that her mother might pass away before they had the chance to heal their relationship.
She was overcome with guilt even though she didn’t have a reason for feeling that way.
Before this, she hadn’t experienced someone close to her being severely ill or at the end of their life, so her feelings and thoughts were completely unfamiliar to her.
After putting it off for a while, she went to visit her mother. Her goal was to find whatever closure the two of them could.
