Looking back, she can honestly say that she was a good fiancée to him and she had even asked when they first began dating if she was just a rebound for his ex.
He promised her she wasn’t just a rebound to him, and he said he truly was ready to be in a relationship.
Then, when he proposed to her, she knew he had to be telling the truth about being ready for commitment, as that’s a big kind of commitment.
“I just don’t know how to move on and get over probably being the other woman the entire time,” she said.
“Our lives are so intermingled with mutual friends and pets and I’m grieving the life I had and the one I planned. I have the itch to just try to get him to text me or talk to me and to stalk his socials trying to figure out what’s going on, and I’m afraid I’ll break and drunk text him something stupid.”
“I’m basically just laying in bed all day. Not eating because I’m so nauseous and just stuck in my head. I ran out of tears a while ago. I have no motivation to get up and do anything. I know I should book a therapist but in the meantime, how do I survive? How do I live with this? How do I get out of my head with the comparisons and what if? How do I remain in no contact when all I want is him?”
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